still has teeth

3:57 PM - another old post that still has some teeth
Category: Friends

originally posted January of 2006 =

So what are the intentions of ex loves, old friends, coulda would shouldas when they pop back into your life just to see how your doing, to let you know that they are thinking of you? Really what is the purpose? to pour more salt in the wound, make sure it's still festering? to remove the scab that has finally formed to open it all up again?

And then Jojo where does he come off asking me how I am doing, it's really none of his business damn it, I doing great, not what we had planned on, not the things we said we would be doing, I am not playing with our puppy, I am not going to the beach, I am not skydiving, I am not with my kids, I am ALONE the way he left me, what the fuck does he really want from me? I can't be his friend, I cant share my thoughts with him, i want to kick him in the shins damn it.
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So you know what to all of you EX peoples, just leave me alone, you left me or I left you for some really good reason, I don't need to be reminded that your gone, I dont need to be reminded that I am alone. I am quite well aware of my alone ness right now and after the stupid move I made today I am content to be alone for a very long time.

if there is a prince charming, and if he does fall in love with me for all that I am, then he will know he needs to come to me, he will ride up on his white horse and carry me away in his own good time. I don't need to go out there find him nor do I need to wait around for him, or help him out by "giving him a little push". I have a wonderful life with out jojo, without michael, without any man and DAMN you for telling me I needed one.

So there, there is my pissed off, bruised feelings, embarrassed and vengeful side for all of you who were wondering if I had one. posted by Tattel....The Tattered Fairie at 5:18 PM | 0 comments


and how do I feel today, OMG I miss Jojo so freaking much - anyone that I date now - I ask myself - Would jojo like him for me? Would I be proud to introduce this guy to him? and if not then I just keep walking. Jojo loved me once upon a time, very deeply and I destroyed it - I realized now that I did it to us - He didn't just up and walk out on me, I drove him away, I stopped being me and got caught up in something else. That wont happen again. If I ever did get the chance to spend one more day with him, I would want to go skydiving, and sit at sunset cliffs in one of the caves and thank him for being the greatest love of my life and loving me the way no other has ever been able too.
So I guess I got over the angry part of the loss and moved on to the acceptance part but I still greive for the loss of that love. and hope he is doing well no matter what he is doing these days.