rethinking

8:12 PM - rethinking

Someone asked me the other day what my intentions are, how do I really feel about being single? I ve had a couple days to think about this now and taken together with the news of a friends marriage I have really looked within to figure out the answer to the age old question "what do I want out of life".

I guess my actions haven't been lining up to well with my what I say. I say I don't want to get married. I say Happily ever after for NOW. I say I enjoy being single, I say alot of shit. But truth be told........... I want the dream. I want to meet that one special person that knocks all my socks off. The one that can see me for who I truly am. The one that sees through my masks and into my soul and Likes what they see. I want to be swept off my feet and carried away into the sunset with the man of my fantasies. I have to be happy for those that have found it and are able to hold onto it. I thought I had it once and I let it slip away or pushed it away so I am told.

so there it is - the ugly truth.

Now this may turn some current friends away but I have also made one other decision. This is me, this is who I am, I am not going to start hiding parts of myself because they may not be as appealing. I am going to be who I am and the prince will know me and like me.....all of me!