REQUEST FOR COMMISSION WORK

In the past month I have received a few requests for my work, either galleries that want to carry my art or others that enjoy my writing. Today, I received a request that I am going to seriously consider. A major player in the Pagan world is putting together a "pagan magazine" with world wide distribution and they have asked me to be a columnist based upon my "confessions of a recovering Christian" writings posted on my blog site (not this one). We haven't discussed pay yet, I explained that I have a more than full schedule with school, two jobs, kids, family, my passion for art and the attempt to gain a social life.

But it's worth considering, my concern is that I am not sure if I will be able to write if given a deadline. I am sure MANY an author has the same issues. Another concern is - Will I have anything to say after a couple of articles? of additional concern is wether it will distract me from my goals.

Speaking of that.....I wonder if I should be more flexible about my goals. I have shut certain people down because their goals didn't line up with mine, I have also turned away work because of the conflict of where I am going and my current status. I thought life would be easier if I set myself some clear cut goals and if things didin't mesh with that then the answer would automatically be NO. Here I go second guessing myself again.

Are my goals realisitic? Can I achieve them without hurting those around me? Am I selling myself short of opportunities that may come along because I am so focused on this particular set of goals? Will I end up lonely and miserable once I have achieved them?

Oh what to do, what to do? It seems as if this year is coming together better than I had hoped for, considering where I was a few months ago. I have a lot to be proud of and yet I still have so far to go. I want my kids to look at someday soon and say "even though she is weird; I admire her. She inspires me to set and attain high hopes and aspirations. She has conquered major obstacles with grace and fortitude. She is more than the best mother in the world, She is my mentor"

Those goals aren't too lofty are they?