Monday Morning

I haven't done a painting in almost two weeks but I have painted my room. I have a ton of homework, which I do a little every day. I quit one of my jobs and called in sick to the other yesterday. I guess I just needed a ME day and I got it.

I have had lots of time to think about what sam said this weekend. I understand how she feels and I think she knows how I feel but the fact remains that we don't have any plans to live together anytime soon.

I was afraid to tell her about "that guy" but Ali kinda did it for me - not knowing I didn't want to say anything. Ali told her about this guy that I am dating that seems to be everything I have always been looking for and he's cute too! Sam seemed happy for me and then when I told her we hadn't even kissed yet she laughed and seemed even happier that I am taking things slow. We watched a movie called "The perfect man", it was pretty good, pretty interesting. We talked more about her and I than we had in a long time and it was good to give her my undivided attention.

I miss him though, I haven't seen him in over a week and I really want a hug and I want to see his smile, it seems so genuine.