ex peoples

Can I just start another day over? Today just sucked. Damn you michael - you got me all in a jumble and made me do something I wasn't ready to do. I am not ready for any kind of a relationship, and I should never do anything just to prove someone else right or wrong, I know better than that. but hey, I put my self out there and if it's meant to be it will be and if not today then some other day.

I didn't think I wanted to be swept off my feet and carried away into la la land but you made me think that it would happen if i just put myself out there - Damn you for blowing smoke up my ass - I really want to yell at you right now but of course your off line and will prolly not be around for a while again.

So what are the intentions of ex loves, old friends, coulda would shouldas when they pop back into your life just to see how your doing, to let you know that they are thinking of you? Really what is the purpose? to pour more salt in the wound, make sure it's still festering? to remove the scab that has finally formed to open it all up again?

And then Jojo where does he come off asking me how I am doing, it's really none of his business damn it, I doing great, not what we had planned on, not the things we said we would be doing, I am not playing with our puppy, I am not going to the beach, I am not skydiving, I am not with my kids, I am ALONE the way he left me, what the fuck does he really want from me? I can't be his friend, I cant share my thoughts with him, i want to kick him in the shins damn it.
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So you know what to all of you EX peoples, just leave me alone, you left me or I left you for some really good reason, I don't need to be reminded that your gone, I dont need to be reminded that I am alone. I am quite well aware of my alone ness right now and after the stupid move I made today I am content to be alone for a very long time.

if there is a prince charming, and if he does fall in love with me for all that I am, then he will know he needs to come to me, he will ride up on his white horse and carry me away in his own good time. I don't need to go out there find him nor do I need to wait around for him, or help him out by "giving him a little push". I have a wonderful life with out jojo, without michael, without any man and DAMN you for telling me I needed one.

So there, there is my pissed off, bruised feelings, embarrassed and vengeful side for all of you who were wondering if I had one.