I am a new College Student!

I completed my educational plan today and formally finished my registration. I am taking a full class load to get my AA in Psychology with transfer for Fine Arts. I think I want a double major in Psych and Arts. I really want to be a professional artist but I am not sure if I have the talent. I guess I will find out soon enough though.

I love doing my artwork, it is sooo relaxing for me, I am able to really focus on one thing. Which is hard for me in any other situation.

So I am going to go to college, this conservative, open minded, rush limbaugh listening, ex christian, pagan is diving into the Liberal world. Will my therories and thoughts be changed? Will I be a good student? Will I be able to stick it out? How am I gonna do with SO Many People that are not like me. It's not like ACC where I feel at home. Do I tell my counseler that I have mental issues. In fact shouldn't all these people be talking to eachother. Shouldn't my Orthopedic Dr., My MD, my Psychiatrist, School Counseler, Disability worker, Therapist and Case Worker all know whats going on? What do I do just say Hey, I found out that I am nuts, Do you need to know that?

It's kind of interesting to learn about the diseases of the mind and getting some relief from my past mistakes. I kept doing the same stupid things because of an ILLNESS not a character flaw. I am NOT a bad person, I am a disabled person with some physical, psycholigical and emotional challenges. Do I need to wear a label? Am I really coping out on society and taking the easy road? Cassandra (my roommate) has told my children that I am faking this so I don't have to do anything for the rest of my life. Could that possibly be true? Is it a character flaw? Am I just a really clever criminal? How do I know what is reality and what is a delusion? Is the movie camera that I feel behind me real? Am I gonna show up on Fox News? Oh wow, that is a crazy memory blast. I remember laying on my bed when I was supposed to be asleep and I would look in the walls and ceiling for the movie camera. hmm I will have to sit on that one.