its that time of the year again

Once upon a time there was a little girl who loved her daddy very much but she didn't get to see him very often because of the big bad evil sea hag that kept the little girl hidden from her father. One day, a very sad day, the little girl came running home from school cuz the evil sea hag was going away and allowed her father to come get her and take her away from her beautiful beach home to the magical land of lakes, mountains, forests and desert.

She ran so fast carrying her big cello....She didn't mind if it went out of tune because she knew that when she played for her father the voices of angels were heard.

When she got home there was no one home and then the evil sea hag arrived in a tattered mess. Unusual for this sea hag, she was never a mess, she was the epitomy of beauty, ok superficial beauty the little girl found out, but beauty never the less. The little girl asked the mean sea hag when her father would be there to pick her up and the sea hag replied "little girl, you can't go see your father any more, he has left this world for another and he wont be back".

The little girl didn't understand....she couldn't grasp why the sea hag would do this to her little girl....why would she keep her away from her father forever....why did the seahag have to be so mean.................

It's scary that almost 30 years later that little girl is still waiting for her father to come pick her up....she drives by the lake often and wonders what would have been, what could have been, if only he hadn't slammed into that damn pole and cut his head off. Why, why, why ..... almost 30 years and still not one answer.... just questions, emptiness, doubt and confusion.

Why would a father get into a car with a drunk driver, why would a sea hag keep her daughter away from such a wonder man, why won't the little girl understand that he is not coming back.

daddy, i miss you so very much, i am overcome with grief. I waited for you in the tree in the next door neighbors yard for 2 days, hoping that the sea hag would just go away and that you would come and rescue me...how could you leave me in that place...how could you stay away...do you see me now?.... do you like what you see....if i do better will you come back.....

you know i see you often in my dreams, you have a new family, with good kids, no evil sea hag, and a great life but you don't want me, you always turn me a way and tell me that if i would have been better that you wouldn't have left.

I see you out of the corner of my eye sometimes...I see that father, loving his daughter, walking along the shore, telling fairy tales that never seem to end, but this one ended, didn't it.....

Daddy i miss you.

rest in peace
Ronald Kieth Page
Died May 6th, 1976
killed by a drunk driver - his best friend
he was only 31 years old, his daughter was 9, and is still waiting for him to return