Haven't had much to say lately

Haven't had much to say lately
Current mood: artistic

I finally go to the dr this after noon for my back surgery - I got hurt in July 2004 and NOW i get to go to the dr. couldn't be better timing i guess since i have been down all week with the heating pad glued to my back. This is getting very annoying - I want my life back DAMNIT! I keep having weird dreams about people that are no longer in my life - I have tried to make amends but no luck so far. I really can't wait to leave now cuz this limbo shit is getting real annoying - July July July - why oh why do I have to wait for July

i bought paper and pencils and actually started practicing Marks Lessons on Art - Thank you Mark for being my personal instructor but I guess when you move to ESCO that will stop :(

It's nice having Cassandra live with us again - i missed her - I hope she will agree to try vegas with us, I figure Brian could come too and we could all live happily ever after in the middle of the desert.

Penny is still sick - it's really wearing all of us down. She hasn't had a fever for a long time but still wont eat or drink on her own. Must give food every 2 hours, water every hour, meds every eight hours. It's exhausting :( She is miserable too - but every time we think of putting her out of her misery she will go play upstairs and dig tunnels and chew a bone and give u smiles.

I am soooo sick of being in Pain - damn it -

The pool is still too cold to swim in - the solar heater doesn't work well with the sun doesn't shine. I thought San Diego was supposed to be Sunny! and according to the sign down the street Lemon Grove has the "best climate on earth" Hah! Well then where the hell is the SUN!

hmmm what else - oh yeah my doll making has been going well except I cant seem to make a female - all my fairies are wizards that look very much like Jojo - kind of odd don't ya think!

I got 30 new colors the other day so I might venture into something different that fairies.

My weekly bookstudy is coming along as well - We are studing Bucklands Big Blue book of Witchcraft. It's been interesting. - However next wednesday is Full Moon Ritual and then the wednesday after is a visit to Vegas to pick out our new house. So no meetings till the 8th or 9th but that gives me time to build my altar I guess. Damn my girls are gonna freak out if they see an altar in the house - I will have to disguise it. I know they don't read my blog so I don't have to worry about them reading this.

Speaking of my girls - it's been real hard lately, I have tried not being their friend or being overly nice to them to show them that they can't treat me (or people in general) so shitty and then expect every thing to be hunky dory the next day. But I love them so much it's hard to stay mad at them. I just wish they would see how rude and disrespectful they are.

Oh well enough complaining - I am off to make a new art piece. I told my self I don't have to clean anything till 10 am so I can play for a couple hours.

Currently reading: Buckland's Complete Book of Witchcraft (Llewellyn's Practical Magick) By Raymond Buckland Release date: By 01 December, 1986