What do I need religion for anyway?
another day on the path......It's been hard this week.
I was at very frustrated, and confused and ready to distract myself from this path all together. I got a rash of or should i say pile of crap on the Cauldron forum the other day. Stupid me thought I would post one of the questions that has been lurking around in my head since I have learned more about Gardner and his beliefs. I would have to say that I am definitely not on the "Wicca" path. But a few more things have happened to me since and I have taken a step back to look at my motivations for seeking in the first place.
I am going to share with you all so that if there is another "new seeker" that they may learn from my temporary departure:
I think I got too caught up in looking for a teacher that I actually started looking to "follow" something again. I was unconsciously looking for something or someone to "Submit" too, to take away my personal accountability, to detach myself from the inner Divine - It was as if I was trying to replace my relationship with Jesus with another Leader. Why though? Why am I or anyone for that matter drawn to "Religion". a pre-made, predetermined belief system. I guess I was looking for the easy way out.
I did figure this out though -
Wicca is a some what structured "religion" that someone has "made up" from many different sources. So to say that I was seeking out the "Wiccan" Path was saying that I was a follower of Gardner and his beliefs, which I know NOTHING about. and what I do know: hasn't really sat very well with me.
Pagan(ism) is an umbrella for all beliefs that don't line up with "Christianity", So i can't say I am following a "Pagan Path" because it's just not possible. Much to wide to "follow" - More of a "region" than a path
Witchcraft is a Tool - Just like a hammer is a tool of a carpenter. It's not a religion, something that is not understood. It is a tool used by many different belief systems. Including Catholicism, Wiccan, etc. Just like using a hammer doesn't make a believer in the "Hammer Path" . It's something to be used, something you do. It is a PRACTICE, To say I am following the "witches path" is also not possible that would be like following the path of the hammer.
What do I need religion for anyway? Why do I have to label it?
I am very glad that I realized that so early and I can now come back to my "research" with a new perspective - A journey in understanding, learning the differernt perspectives that us humans have. that is my path - To journey back before Catholicisim, Christianity, and the modern "church" - What were the different beliefs of all the people of the land. What did they have in common? What are the beliefs
I just got done watching Final Fantasy again from a tottally different perspective on Gaya as I am also reading a book about the "Sacred Paths" of the Native American Indians and their Earth Spirit beliefs. What a beautiful path that is. The words just seem to jump off the page into my heart with a very real energy. When I am reading this book, I am so "Excited". I feel electrified, wired almost, like i am going to Disneyland in the morning for the first time.
On the other hand I wonder if I am totally loosing my mind.........
Do I need to learn more about the native americans, where the "gaya" of the movie orginated from, checkout the Mayans, egyptians, tribal peoples of africa and other places.........Or do i need a psychiatrist?
posted by Vemma Fairy! at 7:21 AM
1 Comments:
Hello Miss Tattered Faerie,
Well I hope your day is going fine. I don't think I got the hang of this "blogging" business yet because I think I post to the wrong message. Well maybe this one will be right.
I also have to tell you that I spoke with you on the phone yesterday, and you have a very nice voice. I called about an order I made from your online Faerie store. So I'm letting you know that I'm a real live "Native American" (I prefer American Indian), and I wanted to comment on your blog notes about "religion" and our "Earth Spirit" beliefs as you call them.
Well its not good for me to go too much in depth about our Sacred things, but I'll try to speak without offending anyone who might be Indian. To me, and to my People, "Earth" is much more than a "Spirit". Earth is "Unci Maka" which means "Grandmother Earth". We take all that makes us live from Unci Maka, so she is more than Spirit because she sustains our life in this realm. We also believe that before we take from her, we should give first...like a Spirit Plate with a little bit of food from everything that is made to put outside so all the Spirits can have something. (Maybe this is how we feed your "Faerie" friends? Next time, I'll look for a oak tree to put it under!). Or we might offer tobacco because it is a Sacred herb. Too many people take from their "Grandmother" and don't even think to give which is dishonorable and greedy. They throw away food they don't eat instead of giving back what was gifted to them. Bad scene.
So let me honestly tell you that being Indian in this country is the farthest thing from "Disneyland". This ain't no romance. On our reservations, Indian People get killed by racists. Or they drink themselves to death. Almost everybody is flat broke, and we can't even use our own land because our crooked tribal politicians get paid by ranchers to use our land to graze their filthy cows. And boy are they FILTHY.
I was on one of these "ranches" where the guy stole another rancher's cows and was re-branding them. I was there to "get his permission" inwriting so my brother could use his own land that the rancher had cows grazing on. Those cows just sit there all day in their own wastes because they are not an animal indigenous to this country. You won't see a buffalo living that way, and the Buffalo is a much healthier creature to eat. But we do everything with our brothers the Buffalo's and we send his Spirit off and give thanks because he sacrifices his life so we can live. THere is a Sacred story behind this, but I won't say now.
Well I choose to live life simple and one day at a time by (4) morals...those are the ones drunks use in getting sober. Honesty, Unselfishness, Love, and Purity. Before you can "find yourself", you gotta figure out how to do those things with a good heart. Until then, just shut up and listen and watch those around you that have these things figured out and apply them to life. Once you get these "4 absolutes" ingraned in your soul, then you can seek a better connection to your Creator.
Hey you got my email on that Faerie order, so write me sometime and I'll talk with you more if you want. Peace, good lady. And STAY SOBER!
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