I dreamt of you

You were in my house, you were dancing in the living room with Kate Bush music in the back ground, your hair was long and flowing and you were glowing, you were so happy. As I walked in, you welcomed me with your invigorating smile, You said "it's ok". Then we were at the beach sitting on the rocks watching the sunset, we were talking, dreaming, sharing our lives and it was good.

Ya know I miss you, I might even miss being pissed off at you. I miss our conversations of what could be, who we are, who we were and who we want to be. you touched my soul and I can not forget that. You made a mark in my heart that said "I was here, Damn it"

I think its wonderful that you are having fun and creating a life outside your work. I hear you look spectacular and from the photo's I have seen: the rumors are true. That makes me really happy to see you with some hope and peace in your eyes.

I hope the bitterness and the anger is over and that we can return to a mutal appreciation of our lives however seperate they may be. When someone who is a force as strong as you are, comes along it's with great passion and energy. It is my hope that the passion and energy can be channelled into something good. I loved you, I adored you, I admired you, I put you on a pedestal that you could only fall from and for that I am sorry.

Thank you for visiting me in my dream. I miss you.....