Thursday Friends

Friday, July 30, 2004

5:09 PM - Thursday Friends! Missing the old thursday night standard? I am not. Yesterday an old foe I mean friend was over and it was amazing. You know when you have a great recipe for something and you have the very best ingredients but for some reason it comes out tasting like shit? Or When you have the most awesome individual pieces to something but when you put them toghether it falls to shit? I had an experience yesterday that made me realize: it only takes one small thing to fuck everything up one person on a chamionship gold medal team of 20 can blow the whole fucking team to shit. I sat there, happy, content, joyful, motivated, intrigued, humbled, when formerly if the same 4 people were in the same room at the same time with I would cringe, tense up, hair on my neck mohawk, with total negativity. So what changed? The absence of a negative influence. The absence of limits, controls, and ulterior motives and suspicion. It's a little scary though to let down your guard like that. i feel as if maybe i should be a little bit more cautious with my enthusiastic perspectives on people. I mean, have i not learned anything by my past experiences? But at the same time i do not want to go through my life guarded and shielded in anyway. I want to be open to all experiences. So Fuck it! why not let those guards down, I mean really what could happen? Would I physically die? No. So even if the experience turns out to be a negative one in long run, it's better to have the experience than to just sit in your room and wait to die. so then after that happy experience I went dancing for the first time in months, Cassy and i finally go celebrate her 21st birthday, I had a blast, I wore my new vintage dress from the 50's that I bought for my 20th High School Reuion this weekend, So we are just dancing a way, having a great time, sweating up a storm and all of a sudden this psycho bitch bumps into Cassy, (ok elbows her and pushes her) and I get a full beer down the back of my dress, so i turn around to see what the fuck the problem is and there is 4 chicks drunk as fuck wanting to start shit with us . So I just turn around and keep dancing but Cassy decides to flip em off and say fuck it - i am not putting up with that shit, so the drinks start flying and now weve got them in our hair on our dresses, in my bra, Somehow even my underwear were completely soaked - Cassy just starts saying Woo hoo and we start dancing in the flying beers - it was fucking awesome. all the guys on the dance floor just came over to us and started dancing with us - blocking those chicks, damn were they pissed, so on the way out we see security has some guy pulled over to the side, they thought he had started it and thrown the drinks on us, so I pointed out the real culprits and we just walked off with the biggest smiles on our faces. That was fun as hell and cant way to tear shit up in hollywood with Cass but I think we better take someone bigger with us. I am a fucking pussy! With a smile on my face and happiness in my heart that noone can take away from me!